Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.
I start my day (this day) I woke up at 7 AM when my mom called me then wake me up. Then, I just started to thinking 'what did I do? what did I miss? and what did I break?' until my life feels miserable.
Then, I go to bathroom at 8.30 AM. I'm so blank and don't know why I black out. I have a lot of think in my mind. And I just want to run for my love of life which is she already married with another guy which is she never know or even met before! how fucked up is that?
Then I go to the office at 9 AM, and arrived at 9.40 AM. Well, until that time, I still don't know what happen to me. I have a lot of work to do and my mind said that I should do it but my soul said I can't do it. It feels like I don't have an energy just like my other half of my body is missing.
Well, because I am thinking about the professionalism, I did my job. Until 12.02 PM, I realized there's 10 minutes left before 12.12 PM at 12 - 12 - 2012. And suddenly, I thinking about making a wish about it (I know, I know, it's kind of loner, freak & crazy).
Just because I want this 'virtue' to be memorized, I tweeted my though "Ti Amo mama & papa, Safira, Safina, Dhede Maisarah, JCIndonesia, Juventus FC"
After I finished my wish, I go to lunch, and I'm thinking to spend a lot of money just for a single lunch even I dont have enough budget for this month. FYI, my lunch today worth 100K rupiah for 1 person. That's the most expensive lunch I ever made with my own budget. I think with I go to lunch in the great place I can refresh my minds, but, even when I ate my lunch, I can't stop thinking about her, us, and my future.
The Fray - Ungodly Hour (with a few editing)
Don't talk, don't say a thing. Cause your eyes, they already tell me more than your words. Don't go, don't leave me now. Cause some people say the best way out is through. I know you're leaving now cause I held on to my way tightly. Stay still until you know tomorrow finds the best way out is through. And I am short on words knowing what's occurred, you begins to leave because of my mistake & stupidity. And now, your 'bag' is now much heavier. I really wish that I could carry you, my love, Milady.
What the hell is happening to me? Is it my biggest mistake? Is it my biggest regret? Is it my biggest problem? Is it my biggest sadness? Is it my biggest craziness? Is it my biggest stupidity? Is it the biggest everything of anything in my life?
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
There's nothing being late.
Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.
Erm, There's nothing being late. Yes, that's right. I choose to start blogging again after I remember that words. Honestly, there's a lot of things in my mind that i would like to write about. Maybe via this blog, I can share somethings about everything that happen (happened) in my life or somethings about my thoughts.
First of all, I want to thank god because until now I still can survive even i have no permanent job in Jakarta (some of the people says, live in Jakarta, the capitol city of Indonesia is very hard. and yes, I admit it.) second of all, I want to thank to my parents and my sisters that support me to live and work in Jakarta, well, honestly they really want me to work at Surabaya.
Then, I would like to say 'Grazie Mille' to my fellow Juventus Club Indonesia whom lend me some money to survive in here. I don't know what else to say, and just for the record, I owe you guys a big time. you can call me if you need some helps. I'll do anything for you guys.
The last but not least, my house mate. well, maybe you think about me as your brother. But, I owe you for the place to stayed when the first time I came to Jakarta at last March.
Well, It's 4 past 20 now, and I should pray (Sholat Shubuh) and then prepare to going to interview in PT. Lativi Mediakarya (TV One) which is held in their main office in Pulogadung area at 0800 AM. I wishes I can go through the next phase so then I can work at the TV Station which is my dream to worked in Audio Video Digital Company. Whoever read this blog, please pray to Allah SWT (to your god - for the non Muslim) for me. Thank you, Grazie Mille.
Ciao Ragazzi, See you in the next post. Wassalam.
Erm, There's nothing being late. Yes, that's right. I choose to start blogging again after I remember that words. Honestly, there's a lot of things in my mind that i would like to write about. Maybe via this blog, I can share somethings about everything that happen (happened) in my life or somethings about my thoughts.
First of all, I want to thank god because until now I still can survive even i have no permanent job in Jakarta (some of the people says, live in Jakarta, the capitol city of Indonesia is very hard. and yes, I admit it.) second of all, I want to thank to my parents and my sisters that support me to live and work in Jakarta, well, honestly they really want me to work at Surabaya.
Then, I would like to say 'Grazie Mille' to my fellow Juventus Club Indonesia whom lend me some money to survive in here. I don't know what else to say, and just for the record, I owe you guys a big time. you can call me if you need some helps. I'll do anything for you guys.
The last but not least, my house mate. well, maybe you think about me as your brother. But, I owe you for the place to stayed when the first time I came to Jakarta at last March.
Well, It's 4 past 20 now, and I should pray (Sholat Shubuh) and then prepare to going to interview in PT. Lativi Mediakarya (TV One) which is held in their main office in Pulogadung area at 0800 AM. I wishes I can go through the next phase so then I can work at the TV Station which is my dream to worked in Audio Video Digital Company. Whoever read this blog, please pray to Allah SWT (to your god - for the non Muslim) for me. Thank you, Grazie Mille.
Ciao Ragazzi, See you in the next post. Wassalam.
First 'Post' after 4 years.
Well, that was a long time ago since i left the blogger's life, and here i am, back again. I want to mentions first that i was changed and became a very different person compare to that 'person-who-wrote-before-this-post.' Honestly, I feel not good (very honest, I'm really not proud about what i'd done in the past) when you all (if there's someone who read my blog) judges me as someone-with-a-stupid-life-at-the-past. Well, I can assure you that I'm not that guy anymore.
But, one thing that I never regret about that-crap-situation is I have one big family which is I can lay on, move on, depends on, defends on and determine on. That big family is 'Una Grande Famiglia della Juventus Club Indonesia'. Well, some of you maybe will says "Juventus again?" "Always Juventus." "Oh yeah, Still Juventus." and something like that.
By this post also, I just want to mentions that I just graduated from my study at Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka and now my label is a worker. yes, finally, I am a worker. and Currently (until I write this post), I'm still a job seeker and by this morning, I have an interview and psycho test at PT. Lativi Mediakarya (known as TV One) as a Graphic Designer/Editor.
Briefly, I was an employee of PT. Huawei Technology Investment Indonesia. I signed for VAS Engineer and they sent me to PT. XL Axiata projects. I'd done some of work there such as the XL NAVY dashboard system which is this system is the daily, weekly, and monthly report of VAS service for high authority of PT. XL Axiata. I was the team member whose developed and I was the admin of this NAVY dashboard system. Once this NAVY project come to the end, I should doubled my work because my supervisor asked me to join with the SQM (Service Quality Management) project until, somehow. I moved to the Monitoring Team (And by honest, I don't wanna be in this team because it changed my daily life because i should worked in Bintaro area and the work schedule is not an office hour).
In the earlier of August, I resigned from PT. Huawei Technolgy Investment Indonesia after have misunderstanding between me and my supervisor (It's private problem and I shouldn't write it here). And now, here I am. I kinda need something to write about.
But, one thing that I never regret about that-crap-situation is I have one big family which is I can lay on, move on, depends on, defends on and determine on. That big family is 'Una Grande Famiglia della Juventus Club Indonesia'. Well, some of you maybe will says "Juventus again?" "Always Juventus." "Oh yeah, Still Juventus." and something like that.
By this post also, I just want to mentions that I just graduated from my study at Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka and now my label is a worker. yes, finally, I am a worker. and Currently (until I write this post), I'm still a job seeker and by this morning, I have an interview and psycho test at PT. Lativi Mediakarya (known as TV One) as a Graphic Designer/Editor.
Briefly, I was an employee of PT. Huawei Technology Investment Indonesia. I signed for VAS Engineer and they sent me to PT. XL Axiata projects. I'd done some of work there such as the XL NAVY dashboard system which is this system is the daily, weekly, and monthly report of VAS service for high authority of PT. XL Axiata. I was the team member whose developed and I was the admin of this NAVY dashboard system. Once this NAVY project come to the end, I should doubled my work because my supervisor asked me to join with the SQM (Service Quality Management) project until, somehow. I moved to the Monitoring Team (And by honest, I don't wanna be in this team because it changed my daily life because i should worked in Bintaro area and the work schedule is not an office hour).
In the earlier of August, I resigned from PT. Huawei Technolgy Investment Indonesia after have misunderstanding between me and my supervisor (It's private problem and I shouldn't write it here). And now, here I am. I kinda need something to write about.
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