Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.
I start my day (this day) I woke up at 7 AM when my mom called me then wake me up. Then, I just started to thinking 'what did I do? what did I miss? and what did I break?' until my life feels miserable.
Then, I go to bathroom at 8.30 AM. I'm so blank and don't know why I black out. I have a lot of think in my mind. And I just want to run for my love of life which is she already married with another guy which is she never know or even met before! how fucked up is that?
Then I go to the office at 9 AM, and arrived at 9.40 AM. Well, until that time, I still don't know what happen to me. I have a lot of work to do and my mind said that I should do it but my soul said I can't do it. It feels like I don't have an energy just like my other half of my body is missing.
Well, because I am thinking about the professionalism, I did my job. Until 12.02 PM, I realized there's 10 minutes left before 12.12 PM at 12 - 12 - 2012. And suddenly, I thinking about making a wish about it (I know, I know, it's kind of loner, freak & crazy).
Just because I want this 'virtue' to be memorized, I tweeted my though "Ti Amo mama & papa, Safira, Safina, Dhede Maisarah, JCIndonesia, Juventus FC"
After I finished my wish, I go to lunch, and I'm thinking to spend a lot of money just for a single lunch even I dont have enough budget for this month. FYI, my lunch today worth 100K rupiah for 1 person. That's the most expensive lunch I ever made with my own budget. I think with I go to lunch in the great place I can refresh my minds, but, even when I ate my lunch, I can't stop thinking about her, us, and my future.
The Fray - Ungodly Hour (with a few editing)
Don't talk, don't say a thing. Cause your eyes, they already tell me more than your words. Don't go, don't leave me now. Cause some people say the best way out is through. I know you're leaving now cause I held on to my way tightly. Stay still until you know tomorrow finds the best way out is through. And I am short on words knowing what's occurred, you begins to leave because of my mistake & stupidity. And now, your 'bag' is now much heavier. I really wish that I could carry you, my love, Milady.
What the hell is happening to me? Is it my biggest mistake? Is it my biggest regret? Is it my biggest problem? Is it my biggest sadness? Is it my biggest craziness? Is it my biggest stupidity? Is it the biggest everything of anything in my life?
